I just entered my house, after the school. I found my mother, not in home. The very next moment the phone rang. I attended the call.
"someone in my family had died. Come quickly to the hospital".
I yelled a lot to my mother. But she didn't replied. So i wrote in a paper that
"someone had died, please come to the hospital, quickly"
The call was just a fake made by my friend to fool me. But, believing it, i had reached the hospital, as the call hadn't told any further info about the dead, i feared, it might be someone very close to me have died, making me feel head ache and shabby. But there, i could not found anyone dead. Also, my headache and tiredness made me week and just used a table nearby, to take rest. I felt a heart pain too. Any how, i slept there.
By now, my mom had reached the hispital as she had got the letter i have wrote. Seeing me sleeping there she just stood bound, thinking that the 'someone' who have dead is me. Then she cried out of control. Found herself getting loose. She sat on nearby chair. Then She phoned his brother and, and after he came, he used an ambulance to take me to home. I had woke up my mind from sleep. But i couldn't move my legs or arms, even my eye lid. Something had bounded my entire body. I tried to cry. But failed. By now the ambulance had reached the home. There were many members waiting for the arrival of ambulance. Soon the ambulance entered i heard some sounds of crys inside. One sound was of my sister's. I too found myself as crying, inside. But no tears, no sound came out. Some men took me out and placed on a table. Then the relatives came near to me, to see me, for last. I struggled a lot to say, "i'm not dead. Help me to get up.". But my sound hadn't came out and thus none had listened me. There were many relatives and friends came to see me. The friend who had given the fake call too was there. He cried like anything. Now i heared someone telling that it is time to get me burried. And some men came and took me up along with the box that i have been laying. They started to walk to nearby holy place. All my relatives followed me. They were also recieting some holywords. I tried a lot to get up and tell, i haven't died. But i couldn't move my hand, even my tounge. The carriers placed me somewhere. I guessed, it will be the place where i will be getting burried. Some sorts of fears appeared in mind. I understood that no one will understad that i am living still. I then thought of my future. Fear embraced me when i thought about the holy classes that i have got earlier. Remembered the words from books that punishments for sins will be getting soon after getting burried. I prayed silently not to get burried quickly. But, who is there to help me? Fear embraced me when i thought of sins i have committed. Then, I heard a person asking what was the cause of my death. Someone answered "any sort, he have reached the hospital, then he felt an attack, followed by his death". It was correct that i got a pain. But, was it an attack?, Am i really died? Do i will get burried? If.... if i have an attack, it will be true that i have died and if i have died, i will get burried..... then... if burried, i will get the punishments for all my sins. All the sins that i have done ran to my mind. Every small mistakes, Watching TVs, unwanted talking, even laughing too were counted in my groups of sins. I thought i wouldn't be seeing, talking, or even laughing if i get a new life. By this time someone placed me to the burry. Now, unknowingly tears came out of my inside eyes. I feared, what i will be. After placing, peoples started to throw soil over found. I got hurted when soil hitted me. And this pain was something that i haven't ever got. Re-remembered, how painful will my punishments will be. What, if the earth had tightened its spaces over me. Now, the last drop of my contact to the atmosphere had lost. I found myself in a new world. A horriful world. My committed sins was only in my mind. My fearness had made me to forget even about my mom, my family and everything. Tears fled off from my eyes. I felt it. I tried to open my eyes. I succeeded. I tried to lift my hand. I succeeded. I stood up. I rubbed the tears over my face. Then fell to the ground to request god to repell my sins. I cried laying there. Time passed. I recognised someone touching me from begind. I stood up and turned back. Two men were standing there. They introduced, they are sent by god. Tears filled when i thought that, here from i am getting my prices. One among them rubbed tears over my face and told
"This is what God needs. He love those who fears him, cry of him"
I got my tears stopped. Joy came to my mind. But some doubts were there over my face. The other guest over there told,
"You are away from where you have feared most. Go through here and...." he pointed to a point. I peaked there. I thanked them using my eyes. And the walked through the gifted path. And reached the paradise, the place where everyone wished to be. I don't know what to do, how to do? I remembered, i could get everything from here. I asked for a pen and paper, my first wish, from heaven. And i wrote this diary.
